mom and daughter

i can't believe how long it's been since i've written....

there's just never a enoug time in the day. work and addie just keep me busy.

back in february addie got her first "official" hair cut....

i'm so horrible...i haven't hardly taken any pictures since then(feb.)...gonna have to start up again!

i'm also having surgery coming up, which will be good, but am still, so sad and scared about it. i'm getting a hysterectomy in may. i won't be able to give addie a sibling to play with it. and then steve and i are still back and forth. i know, we're silly... and so i told him about me getting surgery and he was like, well there goes us. it makes me sad, but i suppose there are worse things in life, then not being with someone.

i just hope addie and i will be super close and she'll want to be around me all the time when she grows up! i kinda invision us as like the "gilmore girls"!! i hope that our relationship will be like that! i love her to pieces and am so grateful i was given her. even though at times, i wanna scream, cuz she's driving me crazy with her attitude.

she'll just have to be spoiled since she'll be only child. lol!!!

back to steve and me...we are still hanging out and talking. it is just so hard that after almost 2 years of knowing each other, still not sure of what he wants. i would think someone would know by 2 years if you see a future with that person. or am i wrong?

i love him, but feel like it'll be ok, if we are just suppose to be friends. although my heart aches to be with someone...this single mom is ok, but is SUPER hard work...

work has been really stressful lately, and wish so muh that i could just stay home with addie and not work, or at least work part time. there are just some things i wanna do with her that i can't do at night. and that makes it very difficult to enjoy parenting. all i do is drop off addie in the mornings, go to work, go back and get addie. go home, and then start the night routine. day in and day out. day after day, everyday...it just is taking a toll on me lately.

well, write more later...